my dear Papa

you may never see this entry ever, but i will still post it. you form my earliest memory, left deep impressions in my tender years and is the weight of my world- even till now.

i will never remember it as clearly as you remembered- my first smile, my first word, my first step, my first soft toy, my first fall, my first cry, my first illness, my first jab, my first wetting of my bed (eeek), my first game with you... and so much more. i guess that is a gift you get for having me... but what i can remember, i will treasure.

i have never laugh so hard for so long now. thank you. today really took the cake! i was laughing so badly on the bed, holding on to the side of my stomach, rolling about, disturbing all the angbaos we spread out on the bed. it is so funny trying to make you see my logic and reasoning... and to make you see the folly of yours. you are so stubborn! LNY is a time of giving not of breaking even! :) (for you at least... for me.. it is the time of the year to save my savings!)

but you are so generous.... your better part shown true, as i knew it will. :) thank you! i know it is difficult for you... money is hard enough to earn and we (your children) spent it so fast! you must find it horrifying to put any sum of money in our hands... muahahaha..

As you have been generous, i will be too... wait for my surprise to you ok? Have faith in your children... they may not be the smartest or best looking but they do love you in their own way.

i know you shave off your moustache for me when it make me cry everytime i see it.. :) bought me unnecessary toys, entertain me in your way, taught me to be a tough cookie (not v successful.. haha), taught me to be an independent thinker and to question common beliefs, feel my pain when i hurt (esp. the china thingy), try to meet my high expectations and cont. to shelter me. (crying badly now)

thank you... you and Ma have been really cool parents. (of cos, you guys can be better.... hahaha but i could be a better daughter too). i may not tell you i love you... my actions might not be enough... but i really really want you to know that... i will love you despite all your faults... i guess i dun noe how not to love you and ma. take good care of your healths k? you guys better live to a ripe old age (minus the illness of course!) just like ah ma....