i had a long day... simply put, i had a long day at work... didnt sleep well last night... so was really beat at work.. didnt get a decent coffee/latte.. the stuff that i was waiting for were late... have lots not finish... which means most prob. i will have to make a trip to the office tmr. After work.. i went out for dinner for the best fish soup i ever had... then puke it out (crying) because i drank some alcohol and it didnt seat well with me... haiz. but that wasnt the hardest....
the hardest is finding out that i have put others in misery... the hardest is knowing i give others pain... that in my kindness, i am cruel... the hardest is knowing that i cannot be myself and i cannot treat everyone like how i would like too.. the hardest is knowing that if i want to make things easier for others.. i have to be less nice... i have to be not myself...
i wish i could take away his pain... his unhappiness... i wish i could be someone who is just another person... someone who will not cause so many complications... i wish... but wishes are just that... wishes...
sometimes i wonder, just how misunderstood i am. who do you think is grace? what do you think she is like? and i wonder if that matches me at all...
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