from my hp's note function 6

my friends, my thoughts are so confused... my heart so unsure... but be assured that i am trying to make sense of what you have shared with me. i hope, you will find it in your hearts and minds to understand my situation... my difficulties... my worries and concerns. and i pray, that you see my innocence and lack of bad intentions. how i wish... you could see into me... and see that i meant no harm, to anyone.

but now... i simply feel ill... feel queasy... maybe it was because lunch was bad, but more likely it is because the lunch conversation is disturbing. (deep breath)

i wont blog about my problems for now... not before i got it sort out at least... but please be patient with me...

here is some stuff i wrote in my hp's note function:

25th June - Have u seen it? the orange tip of the moon?

12th June - The heart of the sun. The heart of the son.

8th June - A stranger to early morning breakfast of buttered bread n milo. i was delightfully charmed by the locals at my neighbouring tables. a circle of vivacious old ladies sharing about their weekend adventure, old couples going about their morning date. man of middle ages indulging in smoke and kopiO. Their eyes lost in the glory of years past.