bitching about work and charity

i seriously hate bitching about work... it is never-ending and you never know what kind of shit it will lead you too... i mean, someone might chance upon ur bitching entry(just because u need to let out some frustration) and tell everyone about it..
but i need to know why do people cc the whole damn world when it is a question to you only? what is the point? to spam everyone's email? hello? there is a cap to how much KBs of space everyone has leh...

i give up thinking the world is a nice place filled with nice people.. it is more like an okay place filled with people who are nice sometimes and nasty other times. sad isnt it... no one is really nice all the time (including me...)

you know... i heard of people doing voluntary work- visiting the sick, the elderly, the homeless, parentless etc etc... and i feel like "wow, im glad they are doing all these stuff man! the world surely need more of these selfless people". does it make me want to join in and help? Noooo... nope.. na-ah... cold aint i? its because i think this should come from the heart... one day maybe i will feel this passion to help.. one day maybe i will have this calling.. but now i rather do my part- how often do you visit your grandparents, spent time with your parents? how often do you teach ur kids, nieces and nephews right from wrong? listen to them? gave them your time? not enough you know... at least for me... not enough... and if i cant even do this for my love ones... why go out to save the world?

i wish to treat everyone around me in a manner above reproach... i strive to be to good and kind to all the people i interact with and this only bring my unhappiness and sometimes sorrow/disappointment... now tell me why should be kindly to... to anyone else when even these people around me do not appreciate my kindness (sometimes)..

dont talk to me about doing good... because while i try to do it everyday... you take it up as a hobby. Think about it, kindness shouldnt be a cause to take up, it should be a way of life.