i wonder if my colleagues realised that i would rather not join them for KTV today... Not because i dont like their company but because i dont feel good... dun feel physically good... dun feel mentally good. haiz...
is this another case in which i am not persistent enough? not strong willed enough? too easily swayed? Why is it that 1 "no", 2 "no"s and still they are not impactful enough to bring my point across? Most of the time, i would love to be in their company... share (from the side) the high-ness generated by them... and let them fill my emptiness but today... i just wanted to curl up at home and maybe catch up with some work. Did i behave correctly by going along, being nice and not wanting to hurt their feelings? But did they feel that i rather not be there?
i feel bad that i have to oblige my colleagues because i love them like my frens and i rather not have to feel obliged. But sometimes... i am shocked by the things they say... like knife jabs into my body...
tired, uncontented and simply disturbed
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