The thing about love is...

It’s Valentine's day, and you can be a sceptic and cynical about this airy thing call Love, or try to understand what Love encompasses. I will leave my thought process at the very last part of this entry and first dish out some luvve to the people around me.

Over Skype on Tuesday night, I had read thr the card Ann gave me and was telling my bf, the happenings of the day when I began crying - it wasnt like those sudden burst into tears... more like gathering of mist in eyes which followed with silent tearing and then into shoulder shaking and choking cries. I might deserve my enemies but I dont think I deserve my friends- how can they be so good to me? so I concluded that someone out there is watching out and over for me. thank you!

Ann: I can ask no more from a sister, what I have already found in you.

Joanne & Gary: despite the short time we know eachother, you guys are great people, sincere and true friends that I eagerly count as my own.

Elaine: as a fellow Actmen, you already have an irreplaceable place in my heart (and yours is a high one too).

Ash: you are so... so what I want to be... I am honored to have a girlfriend like you!

Weilis: my brothers, of course I trust you guys... thanks for making me lol and showing ur concerns. I appreciate it

that Tues, I met some friends of mine for meals... comer y cenar.
For lunch, I met Ann, Joanne and Gary.... we went to Vincent's (or is it Vince's) Kitchen. The food was not bad at all! and the company, even better! These friends of mine- I call them my angels... they are so concern for me and supportive and give great drinking tips! hahaha...
For dinner, I met my IO group minus Ivan and Ho Seng at the Pizza place. we ordered too much and still had spaces for Bens& Jerry.... just show how much we want to cont. spending time in eachother's company...
I REALLY LOVE YOU GUYS!!!!!!

ok... so now, the thing about love is that it is such a huge concept, within which many other large concepts are embedded. Some examples of other concepts embedded in Love would be the principles of Grace, Trust and Selflessness. the idea of Grace is forgiveness and unmerited favor- even the undeserved IS deserving. the idea of trust is relinquishing control and taking responsibilities. and Selflessness would be putting others first and making compromises. These ideas are all linked and play out in love in various ways and in various situations. So, love between lovers, among family, among friends, even for fellow human (yes... there is love there too) most likely consist of these ideas taking different priorities and weights. So, that is my idea of Love.

what I found out, when I think about people I love... is that when I love them... I dun expect the same of them immediately or even in the near future... I am willing to wait for them. just to acknowledge my love will make me happy- by calling me their friend is one way. also, every time I think of how the people I love (friends make a bulk of them) love me, in their own ways... life becomes beautiful.

I think also, that love gives strength for people. because people become more selfless, thus their goals takes up some kind of godliness... and they will strive to complete them. that I think is where my mom is coming from. rem the entry "mommy's fears - a stroll in the park" my mom is more worried that I commit suicide then being rape? I had thought the opposite- I rather die than be raped. but now I understand. if I kill myself, im being selfish because I kill a person that someone love. Thus, if I really love the people around me, then I should live. it will be difficult but their love will give me strength to face the next day and every day after.

life is not the greatest gift, love is. life simply celebrates it. And God agrees (1 Corinthians 13:13).