Where have all my countryman gone?

I feel like i am a stranger in my own country. Seating beside me on both sides are Chinese nationals. Standing in the cabin and filling up half the total number of people are Chinese tourist (I think) and the other half are Philipinos.

Just plug me into a slow song

Just plug me into a slow song, maybe one without lyrics just the melody. Just shut out the noise and clutter of life around me because I need some quiet to breathe. I need a full stop. I need a space. I need commas and all that punctuation.

I need peace. I need tranquility. I need zen.

Happy or unhappy.

I remember you asking.. How happy am I, and I paused before giving you my answer. I said - 9/10 but then when I am unhappy I'm at 1 or 2. You ask me how come but I just said because when I am alright I will push myself to being as happy as I can. And if I am not happy I am just not happy at all. I dun noe if that makes sense but I think it's just that you cant be happy and unhappy at the same time. One will take the front seat and drive your emotions throughout that journey.

My extremely dynamic lfe

I want to throw myself into something! Maybe a rushing rapid or a crushing fall. Just something that will wash away all worries and unhappiness. Sometimes I really wonder what kind of life I have. To have such peaks and lows but it seems that that is exactly my life now.

First breath underwater

There wasn't a peace that I thought will be under the water. The breathing is too loud and the things to remember too much. Can't control my body well enough too so i float up and need help being pulled to the sea bed ( where all the good stuff is happening).

My brain too slow so I won't write more. Will find a better time.

Just want to say to all who prayed for me, thank you! To my buddies (if you guys ever saw this), you made my trip fun! Lets hang out again. To the instructors, u guys really deserve recognition for ur hard work!