Tian made me lovely icons for my work stuff. hugz

must really thank her for the super quick job! so efficient!!! hahaha...

Confused says:

females are fickle creatures. so why is it so tough for me to change my mind? why cant i make a mind change without the emotional upheaval that comes with it? why cant i spare myself the confusion and anarchy? and worse yet, why after all that i still have to deal with the doubts and indecision?

Dreaming

Dreaming- something that I may have dabbled too much in, for my own good. It is different from sleeping, which is something that I feel that I could get better acquainted with all the time. Haha.

Most people wont give dreams a second thought, they think that dreams just a by-product of our actions and thoughts when we are awake, and most likely they are right. But I beg to differ, to throw another angle at it because Dream breathes life into me every night and bring me to the highest peaks and lowest valleys. He shows me the world that I know, as well as worlds yet to be discovered. But these dreams consume me, they hold me down and bound me in tartan. They make me doubt my waking hours’ realism, and believe something else.

-after partaking in too much dreaming... (having a headache today)

the apology

The heart of the matter is that I felt I couldn’t say too much… in fact I couldn’t say at all. And so I neglected my blog and I guess by doing so I neglected you.

as simple as 3,2,1?

I have heard it, a thousand times over, from the mouths of so many, and even from the hearts of a few. Today, I guess I have heard the best yet… how can I not be touched by his sincere and urgent proposal? How can I not look at him and see that he meant every word and believes in it!? I was almost brought to tears by his kindness and kindness because to have cared for me like tat… really there is no reason for that at all.

Oh I more than heard Him, I saw, I still see the wonders and miracles He created! I understood yet there are things I cant seem to reconcile. Oh I know some things are beyond human capability.. and I believe that too. What I do not know is this… why aren’t I running to Him? Why am I rooted to this ground?