updates

i get up in the mornings with a hangover the size of Texas... the hours i keep are quite decent, thank you very much... but it is as if when i sleep, another me begans to wake and live. i do hope her life is more interesting than mine... but please do not over tired my mind and body... haha

but, coming back to my life, i had a super dinner today... Gosh.. so worried i will gain weight with all the food i put into my stomach. Today's dinner was a pizza, calamari, 1 virgin Margarita, 1 Shirly temple... haha... of cos, i didnt had the food all to myself... but yes.. i had both drinks.. i didnt finish the Margarita... was too full..

anyway, other than the food... the view was beautiful and the company was sweet... chatted about all sorts of stuff... jokes all around. the ambient was conducive etc. etc. etc. :)

i know that the entry is getting shallow... but really... my mind is just too tired nowadays to go into any kind of depth...

just know this.

1. life is great, because i made it great. (You can too)
2. know where you stand, esp where you stand with God.
3. other people's opinions dont mean that much, really.
4. take time to appreciate beauty
5. share them with others
6. if they dont appreciate it... its their loss
7. be nice, be kind, be good
8. drink enough water!
9. if you can get a mask, do!
10. the moon shines softly tonight..

p.s.: Jes, Liyu & Tian.... if you guys see this.. i know i want for my Bday le... (i know it is late) but i want another watch.... bec the watch you guys gave was a GREAT gift and i would like another one :) Thanks

catching up with friends

Watch it! it is good... unexpectedly so.

Wilson, Ahmad & I- Goofing around

mom is coming back

*panics!

moms coming back... which means i have to fetch her.... which means... the petrol is not sufficient!!! which means i have to get it filled... gosh oh gosh oh gosh..

At 1.18am today- i couldnt blog out my feelings

i have a lot to say
but they are all stuck in my head
not one word at bay
even as i am lying on my bed

my mind is so heavy
but my fingers unmoved
thoughts crashing loudly
but only a blank screen for proof

waiting for my hair to dry

i had a long day... simply put, i had a long day at work... didnt sleep well last night... so was really beat at work.. didnt get a decent coffee/latte.. the stuff that i was waiting for were late... have lots not finish... which means most prob. i will have to make a trip to the office tmr. After work.. i went out for dinner for the best fish soup i ever had... then puke it out (crying) because i drank some alcohol and it didnt seat well with me... haiz. but that wasnt the hardest....

the hardest is finding out that i have put others in misery... the hardest is knowing i give others pain... that in my kindness, i am cruel... the hardest is knowing that i cannot be myself and i cannot treat everyone like how i would like too.. the hardest is knowing that if i want to make things easier for others.. i have to be less nice... i have to be not myself...

i wish i could take away his pain... his unhappiness... i wish i could be someone who is just another person... someone who will not cause so many complications... i wish... but wishes are just that... wishes...

sometimes i wonder, just how misunderstood i am. who do you think is grace? what do you think she is like? and i wonder if that matches me at all...