Dear John

I wonder- why is it the case that my frens suspect that I am not what I say I am. If I say I'm not seeing anyone, I am not. I dun mind their questions just wonder why they doubt. It has happened before and so often that I think maybe it is bec I seem so contented being single that make people think I'm a part of a pair- completion.

I recently met a few friends, some of whom I haven't met in months and I am so glad to see them. And a topic that came up during one of my meetings is the type of guy I am looking for. Tough that one, dun think I can put it simply and in a few words or sentences but I will try....

Other than being superbly in love with me...
He should be advantureous, not a daredevil, just open to try out fun stuff like rollar coasters n bungee jumping haha.
He should know what he wants in life and be willing to work for it.
Have a good heart.
He should get along well with me and my pals.
He must possess a strong moral standing, and will to follow thr.
Be intelligent enough to correct me when I am wrong and kind enough to make me concede gracefully hahaha.
Financially stable or at least when required.
Score a pass on looks.

Too much to ask for? Maybe but dreaming about him is just as wonderful. For now.

Regarding the title? Watched it. Love him - John I mean. But the story ending is.... Will leave it at that. But I might consider the soundtrack. Hahah. Letters- ink on paper, curves and dots, crosses and imprints but more importantly the speed. It is the waiting that makes the letters so treasured. The fact that it is so easily lost, takes so much effort just to reach you that make you appreciate it.

- Posted on my trusty ifone :)

In the dead of tonight

Everything is dead tonight. A stillness trencends the earth and the sky outside. I think, if it is snowing here in february or any other month, the snow will freeze a millimeter from my window, 2 millimeters from my palm, as I pull shut my window. The air is stuffy inside and out. The electric fan useless now as in winter. I look to my aircon for salvation while celebrities sing for Hatti on the airwaves. I sat on my Elmo and laid out newspapers on the marble land plates in front of me. Pour over the NATAS fair highlights and imagine being in Scotland, Australia and Japan, in spring & fall.


- Posted on my trusty ifone :)

Tired & sick

Watching the convertible pass my suv, and the glassly reflection of the radio light standing out of the night sky, I feel the damages claiming me. My eyes tear and my breathing get more mindful and laborous. My head just bob in time to the acceleration and brakes of the ride.

Tired & sick but still feel motivated. I guess it could be worse but tmr I think I need to sleep and take medicine.

- Posted on my trusty ifone :)

Changing

Things change. People change. Likes change, dislikes change. The world changes. Its mountains change, its seas change and the sky which changes oftenly watches patiently but worriedly.

thoughts during LNY, Bday & Vday 2010

random thoughts:

1. have you ever wonder how come if gravity pulls everything towards the center of the earth... clouds float in mid sky and not at our knees?

2. my fingers looking as if they are dancing on the keyboard when i enter my passwords.

3. i used to make storybooks in pocket sizes about the adventures of Mr Fish... now where is it?

4. how far would you go for beauty? wear color contacts? dye your hair? go dieting? sharpen your nose? into the surgery room?

5. when i am 50, will i still have my frens and relatives around me?

6. 25 and what have i achieved? where am i going?

7. what if there really isnt anything like soul-mates or The One?

8. the responsibilities of a parent is great... the worrys and head and heart ache just as much... but did anyone consider the duties of a child... we blame the parents when the child strays... but why did we not put some (the deserving parts) of the responsibilities of the child straying to the child? people will tell you that its the parents fault.. they neglected their children or spoilt them terribly or controlled them too much etc. etc. BUT why dont people put some of the blame at the child/youngster/ teen... i mean.. it cant be so difficult to grasp.. good and bad... right and wrong... the basic ones are simple. it is a matter of whether some people bother to make the harder choice...

9. some questions have no answers... they cant and arent meant to be answered. their purpose is to make you think and thus kill your brain cells... why else do you think you have so many brain cells.. (grace theory)

10. no more... but just like to end with 10. .... hahahaha