She woke with a kiss? Only in storybooks

It was the unfamiliarity of the ache that made me realised my heart has been laying dormant for so long without me realising. Maybe that proves that we don't need a very active heart to survive. But does it mean that I have not lived meanwhile? But that isn't the story for the day.

This is- my heart woke today with an unfamiliar ache. Like someone had it grasped in the middle of his fist and clenched tightly, like the opposite of an explosion, an implosion unnoticedable by anyone but me, like a blackhole formed on it and is sucking everything into it yet bec the hole is on the heart, there will never be a time the sucking stops.

I bleed in reds, maroon and pink and cried in prisms. It was beautiful, how it hurt. It reminded me that maybe there are worst things in life than failing at work. But I am offended that it had to be so extreme. why can't it be more like sleeping beauty waking from a kiss?

No, I bleed to wake up. And for better or worse, I woke.

- Posted on my trusty ifone :)

A hotpot of Religion and sex

"Put 2 men in a room, and they will choose sides." I heard that somewhere, and it seems that it is not just about side choosing. A religion has been put on the spot, the pastor in spotlight's face splashed across the headlines today.
While I feel terrible that people pin-pointing on eachothers religion and not respecting others choice and faith. I have to admit that when it comes to things of such serious nature (no lesser than life and death, supreme being/s who control you life to a greater or lesser extent). Does it not warrant more thoughts, more discussion etc over it, of cos sensitively I mean. It's a delicate thing to stir at this hotpot. And so many fail, choosing rather to be silent about it. Because I think, religion and faith requires not only logic but more so relevation of a divine nature and that is a of an arguable nature eh?
And sharing the lime light, more girls 12 to 14 having sex, while i highly suspect they agreed to it I don't know just how much thought they have put into making that decision. Seriously I think it is not my biz to be a brown-noser over such private matters but man did they think???

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Horror bus

Taking a long way home bec it is the wrong way home. Silly me. The bus took me on a chilling and horrific tour of yishun park, Avenue 7 and large expense of black, black fields and shadow nooks and crannies where 2 women have been recently attacked. Attacker still at large! Sheesh. Creepy!


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At first, but now I leave all in your hands

With Lindsey tucked under my chin, 1 of my pillows supporting my arms, I type my my mini keyboard on my phone.

I am going mad, I must be because my free time is nerve wreakingly stressed out. Yes, I get weak in my limbs, feel hot when the temp is normal and worse still I think Despair have me on her speeddial. I drown myself in loud music, company of close frens n relatives, tore thr books like they are all going to be burnt tomorrow. I fear I must be quite mad and my body seems to reflect my mental n emotional state like a polished metal plate.

I just want happiness n peace, health and maybe love from someone right for me. But why is this so hard? N why am I feeling so terrible? God, would u please save me? I can't do this on my own, and I think I have done what I can, it is all in ur hands now, can you please, please please take my burden away and just work out my problems in your design.

Head splitting and heart clenching.

- Posted on my trusty ifone :)

random thoughts

and so it became 4:
4 person in the world... whom i told of my little problem...my mom being one of them,a cousin and 2 friends. Honestly, i hope they dont go around telling others about it.. i mean afterall, it isnt a happy news or sth joyous to share.

Books i read/ am reading:
For most fiction buff- The 13th tale by Diana Setterfield
For fiction cum history buff- The Alchemist's Daughter by Katherine Mcmahon
For rare few who enjoy humor & philosophy together- Plato and a Platypus walk into a bar by Thomas Cathcart & Daniel Klein

LNY:
i need clothes, shoes, bag, accessories and everything else too... just in case. lol
watch what movie?

Wedding:
Should i let myself believe that it is bad luck to be a bridesmaid/sister for more than 3 times? but my good friend leh...

25th Bday:
Where to eat huh? lol
will i get presents? and from who?
hm... 25? hm, hm, hm...

travel:
USA or Japan?