Shamelessly copied from T. of Magpies (see side bar)

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Why is the word yes so brief?
It should be
the longest,
the hardest,
so that you could not decide in an instant to say it,
so that upon reflection you could stop
in the middle of saying it

by Vera Pavlova
and translated from the Russian by Steven Seymour


I think the same too... it is all too easy to say "yes" without fully understanding what you commit to and what responsibilities you are offering to shoulder and what you have chosen to put your stamp on.

Burning

Burn brightly, bec the time we have is short. Despite what people tell you, know this you have only 1 shot at it, whatever it may be for u.

It may be so draining to always be burning as bright as you can but is there any other way to burn?


- Posted on my trusty ifone :)

Going instead of coming home

Heading home in a taxi but not heading towards rest. This kind of lifestyle is so criminal man. When can I feel rested and at peace? Is this the lifestyle I want? For how long?


- Posted on my trusty ifone :)

things i want to SAY

I want to travel!!!!!

I want to be a loner/hermit!!!!

I want to not give a f*ck about everyone and everything! (kick imaginary stray can)

I want to change my lifestyle!!!! Do something seriously drastic!!!!

I want to let others know that i had enough of their bullsh*t.. yup yup so many, so many.

I am unhappy and I want to SHOW it!

I want to travel...

I want to be able to lose weight and not care if my doctor thinks that is a bad idea!!!!

I just want to hurt others and not hurt myself by doing so.

days like these

i wonder if my colleagues realised that i would rather not join them for KTV today... Not because i dont like their company but because i dont feel good... dun feel physically good... dun feel mentally good. haiz...

is this another case in which i am not persistent enough? not strong willed enough? too easily swayed? Why is it that 1 "no", 2 "no"s and still they are not impactful enough to bring my point across? Most of the time, i would love to be in their company... share (from the side) the high-ness generated by them... and let them fill my emptiness but today... i just wanted to curl up at home and maybe catch up with some work. Did i behave correctly by going along, being nice and not wanting to hurt their feelings? But did they feel that i rather not be there?

i feel bad that i have to oblige my colleagues because i love them like my frens and i rather not have to feel obliged. But sometimes... i am shocked by the things they say... like knife jabs into my body...

tired, uncontented and simply disturbed