i swear that i am up to no bad.

the change in me is obvious. when i look into the mirror i see the reddish glow caused by a pool crazy day at Sentosa. it was so so so cooling to be in the cold pool in the hot sun... i guess i got pool crazy and the sun burnt my skin a little too zesty-ly. my shoulders look as if the blood veins have all burst just beneath my skin's surface, they and all other part of my skin feel scalding hot to the touch... my cotton tee shirt shafts terribly even with my lathering my body with aloe-vera gel. what a way to start the new year huh?!

But that is not the only physical change in me... and nor the most important one... but i will leave it at that. the more radical/ outstanding changes i see in me are the intangible ones... it is hard to explain but i dont feel like the old grace anymore... and that is SAD. maybe i should change something. something close to me.. something around me.. to get back to what i used to be...

should i leave things to be as it is or should i make a change? this year 2010 (better state it else i will think it is 2009 again) will it be another year of great changes? what will change? will it make or break me? will i be a better person?



Dear God, i have changed and You know it. Santa didnt give me a present last year not because im naughty but because santa didnt come. maybe i should feel relief that the shades are finally lifted but i felt more like someone close to me died. dear God, is this your plan? for children to grow up- and irrevocably and surely lose their innocence? dear God, i always believe that as long as i have You, i do not need to be afraid, that as long as You are with me... i can win battles and wars. maybe it isnt as simple eh? grace and faith... grace and faith.. but what if the world deems that they are not enough? i want to do well in life... so tell me (please) is it grace and faith, or simply acts to succeed in life... .... i feel terrible that i have to ask... and i know it is rhetorical... because You state it clearly and i am not dumb... then why is it still so difficult?

The first girl's wedding - Liyu's

Liyu & Alan & the car - 19th DEC

the sisters

2 tired sisters

Friends!

the sisters @ reception

Us 4

All of us :)

2009's Christmas

the sudden downpour would have taken everyone by surprised. some, like me- more fortunate than others, comfortably arranged on the sofa watching Delivering Suzy.

it came down hard is hurried and the clean, cool scent of the rain and grass mixture is a refreshing morning addition to my breakfast.



Christmas eve was spent merry making with colleagues for brunch and relatives for dinner. My house held the party in the night and there was too much food and too much drinks like it should be. I hope everyone had a good time but i think the children enjoyed themselves the most.. and if i am lucky they liven up the spirits of everyone.

Christmas morning was spent in bed - alone! Around noon time, my mom brought us to visit my grandfather at the temple grounds. then we made a trip to the market to fetch my grandma home. Afternoon, we receive a call that Liyu's mom got stroke... but luckily it was only a false alarm... then the girls and their frens had xmas dinner at Reddot @ Dempsey followed by dessert at B&J. We had nightcap at Starbucks at ECP and it was there and back to home sweet home... the body is tired but the heart is full. :)

So here i am... Boxing day morning and i am in front of the telly... my laptop on my laps... thinking of all the gifts that i have received, delivered in boxes, in bags, in wrappers, gifts i have received sans the wrappings and boxes... thankful for all the good wishes i have lavished on me...

Christmas is a time for family and friends, to be surrounded by people you love and who love you. Merry Christmas to all ....
and for effect, "Ho, Ho, Ho" ... hee hee

feeling blue...

i feel like its going to be a blue christmas... i know that despite my happy face and smiles... i am not truly contented. i dont feel like i am missing a piece... i feel like im not in the puzzle... maybe i am being a drama mama... and just making a mountain out of a molehill but i dun noe... i really dun noe...

anyway... it is time i start with my christmas card writing... already super late... this time... i really have to put more effort into the cards... i mean... one never knows... maybe i have overstayed my welcome and it is time to restart.

Chirstmas ALERT!!! 2

turkey? checked!
Ham? checked!
Stuffing in turkey? checked!
Bone in ham? checked!

ha ha ha....

guests? chec.... huh? what guests?

lol...

presents? Oops, no presents.. hahaha.

just wanted to gather with relatives and enjoy the holiday.