super super guilty... for watching TV.. i noe... crazy... but really these days im doing so much stuff at home... work stuff that i dint get to watch tv and today- finally! Feels so so good!!! im planning to hit the bed at 11 latest hahaha... slept at 1 plus for a few days already. sheesh.
Still have work to do but now.. just want to enjoy a little. hee
Thursday, August 13, 2009
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
random
younger 
olderbut still love pink,
still love to be happy
and still love to be happier!
I believe!
Sunday, August 9, 2009
my first BS session
I am nursing an upset stomach as I think of once-upon-a-times to start my entry with… and I am sorry that you guys have to accept this pathetic and miserable starting paragraph… haha
But I really don’t know what to say… should I say how busy I am, this sat? I met my ex today for breakfast, was stood up. So I break the morning fast alone at McDonald. We had starbucks when he arrived. Then I went back home to take some stuff for my meeting with the freelance designer who will be helping me do my Ad for a magazine. Then I went home again to drop my stuff and prepare for my first bible study class. We finish around 7 and I went to my grandma’s place to celebrate her birthday… finally reach home at 12midnight.
I feel so tired… and I know I must quickly finish this entry.
Firstly, lets talk about the fellowship… haha… the cell group that I joined for today is my friend’s. the people are a bunch of down to earth, friendly kind. they are nice people from the onset and I believe good people at the core. Ann is very lucky to have met and known them
The beginning is awkward because I do not know the songs they sing and without background music… well.. im just not confident you know? But you know, some people sing in a manner that excludes others… and some people sing with voices that encourage other to sing along? Well, theirs is the 2nd kind.
The prayers are short and sweet and most importantly without pomposity. In fact, they aren’t very hard to sit through at all.
Bible study (BS for short…. Erm.. Im not sure why they call it BS but well.. to each his/her own) starts with a reading of the chapters.. Genesis Ch 11 – Ch 12. we took turns…. And we stumbled over the hard to pronounce names and jumbled English but are all readily aided and forgiven. We broke into groups and did summaries of the chapters.. this is something I am still confused over-how they did the summary. Then we formed back and the leaders led the discussion after we reach a consensus of what the summary includes.
It is by no means a quick and dirty discussion of the chapters… there were analysis and references… there were differing view-points and sharing of knowledge gained elsewhere… there was even… looking up of dictionaries (English & Bible).
What I have learnt of Genesis Ch11 &12 is a lot… so I will just state the most impt ones to me here.
1. God gives specific and general orders.
2. God punishes those who do not obey his will.
3. God tests us.
4. God acts in indirect ways.
5. God does not act in a fair manner all the time. (but judges fairly)
I also learnt more about the bible itself… and the big BUT appears…. But I still find that I don’t fit in… it is as if I need to go and start over… to learn first and foremost why I should believe the bible… because if I have undeniable logic of why I should believe the bible… I think… it is a piece of incredibly well written, moving and believable shit (no offence here)!
Lastly, the highlight of the cell group… the comfortable switches from English to Mandarin, from Mandarin to English… the flows of the medium of choice is smooth despite that it is unpredictable… and it like a comfortable and familiar pillow that makes everything seem genuine and well-fitted.
ok... i cant share everything in here... too tired.. and it is too long for most people to finish reading anyway.. loves and nitez.
Side to Ann, thanks for having me... and pls pass my heartfelt thanks to your pals for including me. big hugz
But I really don’t know what to say… should I say how busy I am, this sat? I met my ex today for breakfast, was stood up. So I break the morning fast alone at McDonald. We had starbucks when he arrived. Then I went back home to take some stuff for my meeting with the freelance designer who will be helping me do my Ad for a magazine. Then I went home again to drop my stuff and prepare for my first bible study class. We finish around 7 and I went to my grandma’s place to celebrate her birthday… finally reach home at 12midnight.
I feel so tired… and I know I must quickly finish this entry.
Firstly, lets talk about the fellowship… haha… the cell group that I joined for today is my friend’s. the people are a bunch of down to earth, friendly kind. they are nice people from the onset and I believe good people at the core. Ann is very lucky to have met and known them
The beginning is awkward because I do not know the songs they sing and without background music… well.. im just not confident you know? But you know, some people sing in a manner that excludes others… and some people sing with voices that encourage other to sing along? Well, theirs is the 2nd kind.
The prayers are short and sweet and most importantly without pomposity. In fact, they aren’t very hard to sit through at all.
Bible study (BS for short…. Erm.. Im not sure why they call it BS but well.. to each his/her own) starts with a reading of the chapters.. Genesis Ch 11 – Ch 12. we took turns…. And we stumbled over the hard to pronounce names and jumbled English but are all readily aided and forgiven. We broke into groups and did summaries of the chapters.. this is something I am still confused over-how they did the summary. Then we formed back and the leaders led the discussion after we reach a consensus of what the summary includes.
It is by no means a quick and dirty discussion of the chapters… there were analysis and references… there were differing view-points and sharing of knowledge gained elsewhere… there was even… looking up of dictionaries (English & Bible).
What I have learnt of Genesis Ch11 &12 is a lot… so I will just state the most impt ones to me here.
1. God gives specific and general orders.
2. God punishes those who do not obey his will.
3. God tests us.
4. God acts in indirect ways.
5. God does not act in a fair manner all the time. (but judges fairly)
I also learnt more about the bible itself… and the big BUT appears…. But I still find that I don’t fit in… it is as if I need to go and start over… to learn first and foremost why I should believe the bible… because if I have undeniable logic of why I should believe the bible… I think… it is a piece of incredibly well written, moving and believable shit (no offence here)!
Lastly, the highlight of the cell group… the comfortable switches from English to Mandarin, from Mandarin to English… the flows of the medium of choice is smooth despite that it is unpredictable… and it like a comfortable and familiar pillow that makes everything seem genuine and well-fitted.
ok... i cant share everything in here... too tired.. and it is too long for most people to finish reading anyway.. loves and nitez.
Side to Ann, thanks for having me... and pls pass my heartfelt thanks to your pals for including me. big hugz
Monday, August 3, 2009
chatting with angels
we chatted for a couple of hours, me and my personal anngel. it really is very precious to me.. the few hours because, angels are busy creatures... haha. but despite the short amount of time and the inappropriate-ness of the place (angels dont hang out at starbucks rite?), we did some serious work!
1. Bible study - Mark 11.24
2. HTHT (heart to heart talk) ;)
our HTHT is about how God judges. this is a topic close to my heart because i often felt misunderstood and mis-judged. i felt that my actions are freely mis-interpreted. and i feel upset about it. of cos, i realise that i contributed to this because after all, my actions are the ones that are being interpreted. however, i didnt expect people to cast judgement so carelessly ya know? and... as people (poor pathetic human beings) who are they (we) to judge? which is why i wanted to know how God judges... Does He/She judges us by our actions/words/intentions or all 3?
Because, because, i really hope my intentions and motives are judge! how i wish i can carve open my skin and body and let others see the whys of my ways, but that is not possible- only God can. All i can do (other than by my actions- which are already mis-interpreted) is to TELL you via words of my reasons for doing the things i do.
people tell me that words are cheap... and that is true. we made them cheap by lying... but they are really, the only things we really own... they are the means of expression our thoughts, feelings etc. words are cheap because people lie.. because people dont mean their words... because we wield them loosely... So, take care with your words, understand that words ARE important and weighty. Dont lie, that will cheapen your words... and be more trusting to others' words (maybe i should take my own advise on this)... you never know, you might be hurting others feelings when they speak the truth.
1. Bible study - Mark 11.24
2. HTHT (heart to heart talk) ;)
our HTHT is about how God judges. this is a topic close to my heart because i often felt misunderstood and mis-judged. i felt that my actions are freely mis-interpreted. and i feel upset about it. of cos, i realise that i contributed to this because after all, my actions are the ones that are being interpreted. however, i didnt expect people to cast judgement so carelessly ya know? and... as people (poor pathetic human beings) who are they (we) to judge? which is why i wanted to know how God judges... Does He/She judges us by our actions/words/intentions or all 3?
Because, because, i really hope my intentions and motives are judge! how i wish i can carve open my skin and body and let others see the whys of my ways, but that is not possible- only God can. All i can do (other than by my actions- which are already mis-interpreted) is to TELL you via words of my reasons for doing the things i do.
people tell me that words are cheap... and that is true. we made them cheap by lying... but they are really, the only things we really own... they are the means of expression our thoughts, feelings etc. words are cheap because people lie.. because people dont mean their words... because we wield them loosely... So, take care with your words, understand that words ARE important and weighty. Dont lie, that will cheapen your words... and be more trusting to others' words (maybe i should take my own advise on this)... you never know, you might be hurting others feelings when they speak the truth.
Saturday, August 1, 2009
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