thoughts of good things

some times, exceptionally good things happen to you and weirdly, people around you tell you to be wary, to be cautious and maybe even, to throw that perfectly good thing aside. at that point, what do you do?

do you A) question your assessment of the good thing; B) throw it away without second tot; C) brush off your pals' comments; D) do nothing.

Well, im sure the answer is between A and D (that is not to say it consist of B and C... i mean simply the answer would be either A or D or a combination of both). how lucky it would be if it is as simple as a multiple choice question(MCQ). whereby the answer is mutually exclusive? and best of all, non-consequential to the other questions of life?

some times good things happen out of the blue and before you question the gift, you might have to think of the sensitivity of your action. is it wise to stare a gift horse in its mouth? OF COURSE, if you rem. the story of Troy! but would you indirectly be hurting someone else's feelings? And would you also be guilty of a lack of trust? and also are you paying too much attention to what nay-sayers have to corrupt?

i am not saying that you should accept good things blindly. but i SAY, you should know who the good thing came from... eventually what it boils down to is trust. if the people of Troy thought about it... why would their enemy present them with a surrender gift of such magnitude? wont a fruit basket with a white flag suffice (from an enemy)? What i am saying (Troy story aside) is that if you know the bearer of the good thing... know that he/she is not out to get you.... and just wants to share his/her generosity, then smile! accept the good thing that came your way gracefully and pass this act of kindness onwards and outwards!

you humble me

surrounded by pregnant mothers humbles me. their ability to share their body with another life, another soul... their ability to provide for someone else, in the most natural way, as God will it. this supernatural and yet very ordinary part of being a mother shows to the world just how generosity manifest itself to its extreme yet blends in into everyday life. And it is any wonder why mothers are so well respected thr'out the world?

beauty from a car

can you recognize beauty when it stares back at you?

the pattern of the lone leaf making its way into the world
the bed of clouds filling the blue expense
the centrefold tree maintained lovingly by master's hand

Yes i can, and i did... all from the inside of a car.

who went and died on her?

"the procession came to pass and the wakers left. the girl stare hard wondering where she was amidst the black huddling robes and who went and died on her without saying goodbye."

i guess somedays are crafted just solely for you alone. those days you hid under your sheets and find comfort in a sad book. not because the story is any good but because you need to air your tears. nobody came and killed your family, nobody came and steal your food, in fact nobody came to make you feel no good. but you still feel bullied, you still feel upset, you still think that the sun didnt shine as warmly on you.

"hello? wake up your idea!" get your demons out and use a samurai sword on them.. go "kacha, kacha, kacha!" and whack and whack and whack (ok... maybe a hammer or a bat will be a better weapon to go with the action... but using a sword is so much cooler). until either they die a most horrific and horrendous death- full of blood and glore squirting in beautiful 360 degrees.. splintering shards of bones, teeth and nails into non existant corners and spine-curling screams and screeches which belong to too many calafare OR... you got tired, your tears dried up, your nose- a freely flowing tap, your hands weak and your body unable to keep you a-move.

maybe then, you will realise... a sad storybook will do more good in a much faster and cleaner way. have you clean your body, empty the toxins away and make space for more good things to come?

when God comes knocking, She comes with an entourage of Louis Vuitton luggage... Do you have space for all that and Her?

Of secrets, flyer & royce

my friends, even though there may be many things i want to tell you., i have to admit that i have been more selfish these days. dont get me wrong, you guys have been wonderful! but i have changed. i used to be an open book, a quick read but now i find it harder to speak.

maybe it is because i have an accumulating wealth of secrets, maybe because i am too ashamed of my doings. maybe because there are just things i dare not say because of the consequences... whatever it is, just know that i treasure you! and i will try to find a way to let out my feelings and thoughts in proper time.

i hope you had a great day, because i had one.
love.