monsters and beasts...

the people i love are monsters and beasts...
they make unreasonable demands and expect me deliver
they say the most hurtful things and expect me to listen
they bring me to the highest peaks and then push me down
they hold parties for me but take my mates away
they teach me to love others then make me hurt them
they make me believe then tell me that it is only a dream

they are my friends, they are my parents, and they say, it is all for my good.
And i believe them...

...But another part of me refuse to give in.

What happen to Goodness?
What happen to Faith?
What happen to Kindness?
What happen to Grace!

asking for small favours

maybe it really is divine intervention that i have some soul lifting music in this low moment of my life... maybe i am just seeing signs all around when there really isnt much to read, but well, it is really my choice isnt it? whether or not i attribute my blessing to some supreme being or just take it for granted.

sometimes i sit stumped (like now). couldn't do anything productive despite the ringing call of work except to pour out my thoughts-all jumbled up. my mind is working, honestly, but it is moving at a speed beyond my mind's comprehension itself... could you understand me? it is like an anti-virus software... just scanning away, before you can pin-point which file or folder it is in... it has already moved on.... how then can i know what is in that particular file or folder, how then to make sense of it?

i feel so uncomfortable... so upsetting, so unbalanced. what did i do wrong? how did my bearing of gifts and good intentions cause this downward spin? is it really kinder to be cruel? should i listen to the fortune cookie? i do feel drained.... so spent emotionally...

i just want to be a rock, a stone, a wood... something which does not feel as much, something more at peace. i wan to obtain that...

can someone teach me how?

grandma's night in

i dont think you will believe me. but i am seriously looking forward to work... to going to the office. i have been cooped up at home, checking my emails whenever i could overcome the effects of my medicine. but most of the time... it is just me being sleepy.

my grandma came over to my place to prepare for tomorrow, when the family will be busy making rice dumplings. so she will be camping with me. i had one of the nicer home cooked dinner for a long time man... but i had to work for it... grandma made me help her prepare 1 dish... had my fingers soak in the bowl for an hour, tying knots haha. but it was worth it.

while my trip was great... i dun think my life now is as rosy... just to say, i am quite confused about some stuff... dun think i can really explain what exactly but... lets just say.. im letting this unfold by itself and being calm about it... because, they really isnt any other more reasonable way.

deep in tots.

heya~

I finally touched down at Changi Airport...hit the bed once i got home and began snoozing... haha. so freaking tired man. anyway... im a little ill.. having cough with flam and blocked nose... hahah... so maybe tomorrow i will be on mc... haiz. kk gtg check my temp. now.

photos will have to wait. just know that Australia is the BOMB!

Day 2 Fremantle & China Town

We had Cicerello's fish & chips for lunch... We shared! :) also, we order colesaw, lemonade and chocolate milkshake!!! the fish and chips are great... the fish better than the chips. we finish the fish in no time at all. but to me, the eating experience is the unforgettable one when compared to the food. you have the sea breeze in your hair, stirring up the oil paper which is use as the plate for our fish & chips.. the seagulls flapping above us and the port/jetty view.... gosh, it just takes my breath away.

We took the CAT bus at Freo... they are cheater bugs! it was way faster to walk... we walk back from Cicerello to Fremantle Market... and then to Fremantle Station at half the time we took for the bus to get there. all we got from Fremantle is a box of strawberries.. hahaha... oh well Fremantle market is a lot smaller than i think... sad. but we didnt go to anywhere else in Fremantle... should we go back again?

Dinner was at China Town of Perth... lots of chinese food there. It is not bad la... but not fantastic also... by this time, i have began to get sick of the water of Perth. It taste FUNNY! in a weird, not good way..anyway, tmr will be super packed day! i cant wait!!!!

Life is not measured by the number of breaths you take, but by the number of moments your breath is taken away. And this Aussie trip is definitely going to add lots of "breath taking moments" in my life!