My greatest achievement?

someone asked me what is my greatest achievement and i couldnt answer because i dun feel that i have done anything near greatness yet.

but i came really close to greatness- i met someone great! or maybe it will be more accurate to say that i just found out that someone i know is great. haha... it may not be his greatest achievement, but to me... if i did what he did... i think THAT will be my greatest achievement!

to risk my own life for another- that must be deserving of the name of 'greatest achievement'... and i am very proud and yet at the same time, humbled that i had the good fortune to meet someone like tat... i think, it must be even better than meeting LKY himself (wink).

i would trade, all my smarts (i know it is not a lot), all my beauty (erm we could debate on whether there is such a thing...) to be anywhere closer to being a more selfless person... a kinder person.. a better person. Gosh... how i admire you...

Thank you God, for giving the world such a great man and for letting him into my life (even a little). :) You are so good to me... maybe that's why i love You so. Keep him safe, please let him continue to do great things in Your name... I know he wants to.

Feeling blessed.

i *heart

Lovely song, loved it when i heard it as a kid... and still loved it because it is still relevant -evergreen. the vid is old, but so what? Goods things last for a long time.. and at least, in their old age, they are still good! Dont discriminate against the old (hint hint lol)

the rain kept me home today... but i really want to go out... to walk among raindrops.. and smell the scent of wet grass and hear the thunder roll leisurely by. i feel like a dog when i press my face (slightly) against the window grill, sniffing the air for the delicate smell of the rain. even as it rains.. i wan to be close to nature. even if it storms, i wish to be embraced by it.

you know how some people live dangerously? i dont. i live carelessly. that is just as dangerous but more accurate to describe me. because, some times i dont mean to live dangerously... i just attract trouble and danger by my actions/ words and wat nots.

Anyways, i think i must have used up all my 'Stay out of home' card yesterday... haha... but, it felt like a really worth it use. ;p 就这样，尽在不言中。

the Moon & I

Colored bulbs stringed from tree to tree, like daisy chains which sit on the crowns of little girls' heads. they light up the velvet ebony sky in the absences of the stars and comfort the moon in her solitary existence.

i am in-explicitly drawn to the moon, to the stars, to the night sky. it is as if my heart recognizes that they are my anchors. from an age old instinct of an older time, they have served as signposts and lighthouses to man's foray into the uncharted, un-tame. i still recognize them as such.

but my heart recognizes more than that, it knows unerringly and without taught, that the night sky is a comrade to it (ie. my heart). while i share the moment with the night sky, i take comfort from the fact that others (many others) like me are sharing a similar moment in their own way with it and thus with me. a deep sated imprint of the loneliness of the solitary moon.

Watch it! Buy it!

Damn nice! i think this is something i will rank equal if not better, than Love Actually. I see myself in some parts of every character... so ya, i think it is... worth owning in dvd... :)

How do you know

that i am better?
how do you tell?
i fade in and out, on and off
trying to find my happiness

i tag along, i blaze my own
i smile, i laugh, i muse
but most of all,
i live on.

and in living on,
i moved on.

Lovely picture from http://zaratops.deviantart.com/art/after-it-rains-114563553

taking a breather - do you mind?

I finally finished a portion of my work today
And the storm finds time to show its face
We drank tea and chatted away
But mostly, i just sigh and daze.

haiz... why do i feel so restless, so NOT at ease?
Why does peace eludes me?