there are sweet posts and ugly ones...

why cant good news/ posts last longer?

He will be ( a super sweet post)

His band performance... i am so glad to catch it... because it was so great.. He was so great... (he still is)... and he will be better when he is older...that is something to look fwd to... isnt that great? :)

I am so happy to see him happy... to see him enjoying himself... despite that i actually arrived at SIS Big Steps for Starry Starry Nite 09 pissed. He most likely did not / have forgotten about this. Tired and hungry.. and weather suck.... not in the best of form i guess.. dinner was half a bag of chocolates.. and even tat dint help.

BUT, he did some things RIGHT.... (i better list them to better illustrate how many things he did right)
He came to fetch me even though he was supposed to be taking a break..
found me a place among his frens so tat i wont be too lonely...
make quite a long trip to keep my shoulder bag...
came back and join me... when he could choose not to
Brought water for me...
sat with me despite that it was making his back ache...
HE PERFORM FOR ME (of cos.... he performed for every1 else too)
he allow me to take time to fill my stomach despite his exam tmr morning
held me as i sleep in the taxi (he slept too but that is fine)
sent me home first

But the most wonderful thing... is the way he looks at me from the stage, and how he held my view, smiled for me... and dedicate "I'll be greatest fan of your life" to me with the raise of his arms and the assuring smile... i wonder if he still remembers that he is on one of my fav smile list...

I guess i have to write this out because i do not want to forget today... in a time where strife and conflict is so common... i can only try to hold on and rem the good in life. (no photos bec i have no camera... plus dun think i will have hands to hold it... my hands still tingle due to all the crazy clapping and my voice still weak due to the mad screams...)

But overall.... i feel like im falling in love again to him.... now... its all depends on whether he will fall in love with me again....

dreaming of china and meeting friends

i dreamt of china... or, to be more specific.. i was walking down a street in China...
maybe because i had sichuan steamboat that dinner... hee....
it was dinner for 2... me and Yi hui.... i would say it is not bad.. but of cos, the one in china was bigger, better and cheaper... like duh.. but im quite amazed to find that the soup is around the same as in GZ...

also, i met 2 friends that i have not seen for some time.. and they were amazed that i was backed... hahaha.... hello? but i have been back since Sept.... but still,,,, im so happy to see ya!!!!!
Tam Xinyi and Ivan Tan Yao Ming!!!! :) feel so lucky... haha

moreover... i just found 2 friends on Facebook... Ivy tan!!!! and Fang Yin!!! my god.... so my primary school friends are still alive! haha... miss ya man!

i know

"i know" 2 words but a depth full of meaning...

i know you guys dont want me to write another heavy entry... well... i have wanted to write some stuff a few days back... but i cant seem to write down anything then...

i know that life is mostly good but.... it sure can test your belief in that.

i know that some people fleet in and out of my life... their transient presence in my life were written in the stars... these people's influences however were not tied to the duration of the time we were together... i will most probably rem them even in my deathbed... however, i also know that some people are meant to walk beside me throughout my life's journey... their influences... most likely made me who i am... and mold me to become who i will be.
now, do i know who are those people who will just see me thr a part of life and who are those who will be the ones who will make up a part of my life?

I guess thats why the smart people out there dont open their hearts to others...

walking in the rain

why do people walk in the rain?
some, like me simply like being hit by raindrops
some, like me simply find it more efficient not to hold an umbrella
some, like me simply could not find an umbrella,
some, like me like to play with/in/among water

some, like me.... want to hid my tear-drops with raindrops
thats why they walk in the rain...

i love the stretch from SOB to City hall MRT... the stretch along SMRT building...
i always feel so much while walking along that stretch... happy, sad, in a hurry... heck-care... serious, playful and even... when i am a wreck..