playing 2nd fiddle

sad and almost ashamed to say that... i hate to play 2nd fiddle.. and i guess... i just am too egoistic to want to do that... at least when it comes to my relationship with my bf....

hate to lose... esp to a hobby... finally understood how he felt when i have a book beside me.... i guess... that i have no choice now.. but to quickly get my hands on a book... so that i can pretend that i am not being neglected......

xiao ting.. i thought of u today.. when i hear 朋友 on the radiowaves... we spent so much time in KTV and we sang this song so often that i immediately thought of u guys when it played... wishing all of you happy and hearty....

the thing about social networking websites....

is that... some can really get addict to it.... im not talking about myself.. my updates tend to be really really old...

it is really effective in that many people can immediately get to know what is going on in ur life... except.. this doesnt really help if the people most impt to you are not as into such thing as compared to others (the more general people...)

So here is my lament about 1 social networking website.... bec i do not use the networking services... i tend to miss out on what is going on in my bf's life... and he doesnt really like to tell me how he is feeling except to update "What are you doing now" every time... so this gf (Me) do not know as much about her bf as other people who are whoring on the website does...

should i feel ashamed? hm.. honestly... i dont know.... wat do u guys think?

the almost never - 5th Anniversary

it almost never come into existence... this anniversary of ours... but i am very proud and thankful that we have managed another year...

i have always maintained that anniversary do not need to be emphasised too much.... no need to much fanfare... expensive gifts etc.... but after coming so close to not reaching our 5th year together... i really have to say that i was wrong... not utterly wrong but still... much mistaken.
bec.. it is not easy to stay together for 1 year... esp. if people travel or change or adapt their lifestyle... thus... it is good to remind ourselves and each other that... well done...you have survived the arguments, tempers, doubts and neglect.... and have held on to the happiness, fun, laughter, cosiness, companionship and love.

of course some of you loverbirds out there celebrate monthly anniversaries... weekly.... or even *gasp... daily? :) it is good to express your love all year round.... but do so within your means... and nv forget that small things can speaks loudly....

SO,... what we did today.. after work we met in SMU drop our laptops... and went to Tony Roma's... i promised him that even before i went to China... so i delivered my promise... a gd start for the next year rite? and he rem sth which i didnt think he would... which meant a lot to me.... we had ice cream for deserts... just 1 scoop - we shared.

here is wat Yihui gave me:
A card filled with message and a love voucher... :) the most (ever for him) thought-thr, meaningful present that he had ever give to me.
And i got him Armani's Diamond... it smell damn nice... PLUS he loves it too.. :) so now... we are even... he gave me a diamond before and now i gave him one too.. :)

ok... so better go to rest now.. god knows... i have v little of that these days.... filled with love.

the 3M machine

there really is a steep learning curve...
the orientation was for 1 month....
the work starts 1 week into my joining...

so that explains why my blog is not updated as frequently...

i have been thr a lot.... and not just career wise... my relationship with my bf has also changed.... it is a long story... and at this pt in time i still cant say if it is for the better... it so scary... i think... i have nv tot there could a day like that.... now i feel so unsure about everything... haiz....

so much and so little, so near and so far

the final baggage has arrived... i havent take stock of them yet but it seems that all is intact.
my first pay check from 3M has arrived too... wanted to share some of the cash with my family... by treating them to dinner yest. but no 1 cared.... so i end up spending it only on myself... Bf too busy.

ok, a quick simple down and dirty explanation of the title of this entry..
so much to say and do and so little time, got my pay... yet still in debt...
so near to people ard me... yet so freakingly far from their hearts and mind

okay... that sums up all i have to say to you... but, Yi Hui, we have to talk.