Just writing...

a drug trail of empty capsules,
transparent plastic containers
dented in many places
lay among the table legs
left over 30 nights
they mark the days
in various states
of disarray.

- & -

a blood red rose sat carelessly on the edge
of a dirty white cement ledge
i wasnt sure if it was waiting to take off with the wind
or just enjoying the view ahead

Chirstmas ALERT!!!

:)
Christmas is coming!!!
Got your tree? Bec i got mine :) hee hee...
Cant wait to deck it with the accessories i got from Ikea!
once the rain stop.. then i can transfer it out of the car...
(rub hands in glee)

What am i doing? just drinking coffee...

slurped hungrily, the coffee was,
as i chewed gently on the edge
of my deep green straw.
so lost in my inked reality
i must have deprived many
from a drink at my table.
but my eyes and fingers work together
and the pages, as on their own accord
build the world enclosing me.
as i consume the coffee
the book devoured me
to the last world and period.

the exed-world's most eligible bachelor

gosh.... the world loss it's most eligible bachelor??!!! so typical of him... but at least he brought smiles and laughter to my seriously bleak day...
people ask, does attending weddings make me want to get married... and honestly? nope... but to see two people so happy in love, so together, sure makes me happy and envious (just slightly). hahah... so when am i going to meet my other half huh? i guess... all in good time eh?
what i love the most about the wedding- the church ceremony! it made me smile, made me tear... made me sigh.. all in a good way. i guess it must be the love that shine from their faces, the conviction and commitment of the two of them in what they believe in- the holiness of marriage, their common faith, and of cos their love of each other.

Anemia

Anemia also spelt Anaemia comes from Ancient Greak, meaning - lack of blood... hm... it is a decrease in red blood cells (RBC) or just means that there is less than normal hemogoblin. Since hemogoblin in the RBC carries oxygen from lungs to tissues, it results in a lack of oxygen - Hypoxia.

I also learnt that Anemia is one of the more common blood disorders, and may occur undetected in many... i wonder if that is a good thing or not to me?

Stand up to Cancer

Of truth, time and trust

What is Truth?
- Fact
- Generally upheld acceptance
- That which is real and exists

How do we come to understand Truth?
- It has to be know-able ( meaning ability to be understood)
- It has to undergo rigorous, sound, logical investigations

Am i missing something out? OF COS! because there are tons of written material on Truths and tons of which are incomplete and unfinished discussion... and many many on-going learnings and understanding of Truth.

We know how Truths help us in our daily lives, such as enabling faster, better, more efficient decision making - work, life, friends etc. But how do we identify truths? esp if we do not have the time to test it? Time is afterall, Truth's bestest best pal...

Well, there is this thing called trust... which is huge. because in a situation of a lack of time and resources, it really boils down to this. Trust facilitates truth in my opinion as it makes the unknown and unknow-able true. Does the saying "In God We Trust" ring any bell? It is still the truth, if it could not be proven? YEP.

Seriously, i am not saying Truth is over-rated, i am saying Trust is not given its time of day!

my mother's place

my mother never told me the burdens she carries. how, despite how hard she works she worries that our family does not have enough. she never hints to me how challenging it is to carry her responsibilities as an employee and yet holds on to her values of looking after the family. she always makes it seems so easy, so obtainable, in fact, so part of life that it is possible to be more than wonderwoman.. i mean wonderwoman doesnt have a family, no kids... no husband...

i remember clearly, the interview i had before i was admitted to SMU... there is a question by the panel of interviewers about woman in corporate fields... they asked about how profitable it is for a company to hire women... they asked how profitable it is for a family to sent their daughters to higher learning, and how profitable that is for the country... and i was shocked and appalled that they dare question me on this seemingly 'duh' question! of cos it is profitable, of cos it is valuable, of cos it is an investment, OF COS IT IS WORTH IT...

it is all about equality of the genders, of meritocracy, of not wasting what little talent we (Singaporeans) have and then, some more. But, it is also about economy, it is also about returns and contribution esp. in the corporate arena...

one day... i may have to make a choice... or maybe it would be more accurate to call it a sacrifice, but i will have to face it. like all the women who have came before me and made theirs.

i have a higher calling, one that throughout the history of time has been passed down from mother to daughter. i am tasked to put my family above myself... and i am tasked to put aside my own ambition for the good of my children. this is not something just unique to woman... in fact it is the same for man. The only critical difference is this, in putting family first, man finds greater need to work and excel in their career. sadly, that isnt the case for woman unless of cos, there is no man in the family.

I feel so bad, so freakishly sad... that most women are forced to this corner and had no choice but to give up on 1 or the other. but i also take heart, that there are women out there who can and have managed both. my mother is one... she didnt always have it all... but she has persevered, and she is now greater than wonderwoman. yes, one day, i may have to face this age old question, but i must ensure, that if there is anyway, any other possibility, i would always choose to have the best of both worlds!

But if there is no other alternatives, and it is a choice between work or family, then it is not a choice for me at all.

Having highly educated and productive women in corporate sector is good, the returns on that investment is measurable. But having highly educated and productive women as homemakers, grooming the future leaders that is as good, if not better, would you agree?